FREAKIN' NADIA COMENICI ! (was I really her age when I watched her win 5 Gold Medals and earn the first 100% score in Olympic history?)
So many accomplished, outstanding people are my age.
MY age! (Well, one year younger but whatever....)
What, from the bottom of my heart, the fuck?
I feel gut punched. My tongue is rolled out of my mouth as I slouch my way over to the fridge like a dejected Quasimodo to check if there's enough wine in the box (yes I said box) to numb the pain of the giant LOSER sign nailed to my forehead.
It's times like these that make you question what the hell you've been doing your entire life. What have you created that is lasting and impressive?
Well, I have 5 beautiful children and they have given me (so far) 7 gorgeous grandkids...but that is, however lovely, not an especially headline worthy accomplishment. Sorry kids. The world doesn't share my feelings of your utter and complete uniqueness.
And it's true that the model of my hand I made at my first real job as a 19 year old dental assistant (using a milk carton full of alginate ...the pink stuff used to take teeth impressions) is a classic 'rebellious youth' statue (also known in Canada as the Trudeau Salute) ... but one careless elbow can knock it off the shelf and ALAS! my legacy is lost.
I will have to do better these next 10 years so when the NEXT list is made, I will sit and take a peek through it and think "Whatever. Losers." and with my head held high I'll turn my scooter into the produce aisle and drive off to find an economy size bag of prunes.
(Below...the source of my angst!)